I really don't know how we can keep being the friends we used to be. Sure, I don't regret being best friends with you and all. You've definitely taught me many lessons and I'm very grateful to you, but I honestly can't remember what that time was like. I feel like my mind categorized that time as so emotionally painful that any memories with you have been stored away into a box labeled "Don't remember that hurt." I honestly don't care if you're right anymore. So what if you're right? Are you gonna say "I told you so?" What good will that do? If you expected this to happen, why are you still making me feel guilty now? Why do you keep calling me at 1am?
I don't know if I still want to talk with you like I used to. During that week before I went to China, I remember I talked to you every morning and night. It was fun and I remember liking the time we talked. However, I can't seem to talk to you like that anymore. I really don't know why. Whenever you insult me or make me feel guilty, I just wonder why I put up with it. You say its cause I'm used to it, but I don't think I ever was. I'm a girl, and girls are much more emotional to insults than guys. I was used to it because I knew you weren't happy, because I didn't want you to have to deal with a little child whining about you being mean.
I just don't know what to do with you anymore. You know I can't help you with any of your problems. The only thing I can do is listen and be there for you, but now you don't need me anymore. You have a girlfriend that I'm afraid you love to death. I remember the time when that evil witch was your girlfriend. I tried my best to just forget you. Now I guess I'm trying to do that again. I don't want to lose you of course, but I think I'm going to have to. Dependency on one person is horrible, and I used to be very dependent on you and Katherine. Now I'm dependent on another person, but I know that dependency can't last long. It shouldn't. I'll still be your little sister and I'll still be there for you if you ever need me. However, right now I need you to not need me. The past is best forgotten, and you were my past.
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
oooooooooooooo god
times like this that will turn a non believer of luck into someone who wishes on 11:11, crosses every appendage they can, and apologizes to any god out there for all the sins they've committedT-T
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